Ekiden Music Relay

Totoro in Chicago

Dear Love....

Dear Love,

 

First off, I want to say that I am very sorry. What are we doing? No one enters relationship and expects it to end. We are supposed to be planning a life together, but we are not talking. How can we go from talking everyday, and all day on the phone to nothing! How can we go from being friends; to lovers; to being nothing! I wake up at times and think to myself will I ever have another relationship that will ever match up to ours. At times, I wake up and don't know what to expect, if I were to enter another relationship, and don't think I have what it takes to please anyone else. I wake up everyday, and I think how it would be if I ever made contact with you,  but the side if me that is very skeptical about our relationship shuts any positive thinking down.  I think I could handle things better if you made the first move,  but I know that it would be impossible for that to happen. We are supposed to be a team, but those memories are fading more and more away. A couple that inspired many, and supported each other in personal goals in the fitness community,  and outside of the fitness community. Our times when we got along together will never be matched, and hope to myself that you will find someone that will give you what you deserve, because you are worth everything due to what you've encountered in your relationships. I'm sorry that I let you down; I'm sorry that I didn't give you what you deserved; I'm sorry that we couldn't handle our negative situations better. I do know that there is a man out there, that would give you everything that you didn't receive from me in our relationship,  and i pray that you meet him. I never entered our relationship, and wanted it to end, but it is only too much that the heart can take when fighting and love are involved. The devil, surely has won this relationship ending battle, and it will never be the same. I only wanted to start over from the start, and get to know you again as a friend; then slowly get back into what we were,  but you aren't interested in that, and that's what breaks my heart! I wish you the best love, and I will never forget about you. I miss you very much!

Ward Gardens

Work with me

I'm very nervous right now. I'm going to make that call in the morning. My only thing, is not knowing what to expect. I don't know what type of mood she will be in, and I don't know what she has to say to me. I just hope everything works out and we can work through this, because I really don't want to lose a friendship over a simple argument. I have to let her know how I feel, and that I thought about her everyday, that we werent talking. I may get my heart broken, or I may not. I just hope everything works out. I've listened to her voice message 6 times already, and I'm sure I will listen to it a few more times, before I go to bed. Im very nervous, and stalling to make a move.

My thoughts......

As of right now, I'm more focused on my career. If you're willing to work with me and wait on me to get mines, then yeah, we can work something out. But I really don't think that you can handle the amount of attention, that I will give to you while I'm attending school. Nobody has time for simple arguments about how much attention im giving to you. I could take that energy and put it to other use, like studying for a test, or doing my homework. I don't have time for that! Its too much stress, that I don't need. I'm trying to get my stuff together, so that we can have a good future together. You have yours, now let me get mines! I do want everything that I said that I wanted, it's just going to have to be pushed back. I've been very faithful to you, and never had a interest in any other. You are the best thing to ever have came into my life. If you don't want to work with me, then it will never work out. I hope all is well, I do pray for you often.