My Hawai'i tour, will definitely go down as my more depressing times, in the military. I rely on running more than I did at previous duty stations. People don't see it but I struggle everyday. Running keeps my mind off of being older, never married, and with no kids. I want all of that but nowadays its tought to achieve that. Most my age have allready lived everything I want. Some are going on a second round. The thought of not being able to pass on a legacy sucks. I flush it out of my head during every run. I'm just happy that I have something to keep my mind occupied, and one of the main things that bother me, off of my head. You include that, and family are my main reasons for always being on the pavement.